I am for some selfish reason glad that this month is coming to an end. It was fun but way way busy. 2 trips and the jazzfest and edgesfest all wrapped into one hectic month. plus i am really behind at work. more than i have been for a while. but for some reason when i am behind it greaks me out and i get more bhind due to feeling overwhelemd by how behind i was to start with. i can just hammer it out if i get in that u know focus mind frame. i am living a sedintary life style. i need to get out and move around some mone. i was way motivate dbefore but then i had soem trips in the middle and they threw off teh routine. i can get back in teh swing soon though. no more distractions. we are fighting for our helth here and that is important. my nails are really long right now and i keep looking at them and wondering how they grew to this length.
second thoughts...i should have never bought that dress! or that halter top for that matter. i'd have another 100 bucks right now...but maybe it was worth it cuz i felt super hott at the femmies and at sue ellens. which is popping btw. let shope it stays that way. the 2nd floor is really smokey though.

30 days of joy
I notice that you notice
My thoughts become your words
My need is your concern
Laughing under a swirling sky
Contemplating in candle lit rooms
Questioning the unknown
Accepting present circumstances
Defining words pluck rooted growth
April keeps me smiling
Beyond 30days..mystery

appreently i should be a nurse....got some ppl to message

and the survey says

i polled a few friends today about my love interest...and the overwhelming theme was why the hell not? which i wasn't expecting but was glad to recive. i am no longer scared and for a long time i think i was more scared of what other ppl would say or think but it's my life u can deal. but really no one else thinks any less of it than me. so on a ledge i will step. and the worst that can happen is heart break right??? been there done that...a couple or more times. i can take it if it happens. but i'm pretty sure it won't this time. something tells me that it's all good. bumps maybe but diasters...no. I love her, so what was i so afriad of?