It’s been a weird few days. Fridya was very busy which made Saturday kind of lazy until shopping time in which I spent no money….well not that day. Kept my district 9 plans…there will be a sequel I am sure of it. On to party hop time. Jared and Merries’ party was so awesome mostly because I had never been there before. They were living in the attic of this old house converted to apartments on Oak st. they are living my dream of someday living on oak street. It was painted so nicely with slanted ceilings and a balcony to day for. Attic windows that open to the roof in which I would hang my feet out and watch the Oak street traffic or write a few poems. I loved it but all the stairs wooooh. That’s my lazy gene talking. Moved on to Travis’ party where Jackie and I proceeded to argue…I was being a bit careless about her needs. She said she felt sick and wanted to go eat to feel better. I felt like she made up the feeling sick just to go eat but she may not have and I just wanted to spend more time with my friends. You can imagine how that turned out. Sunday was lllalllaaalaazzzzzzyy. Well I guess kinda we did go to 3 different stores and to a barbq which was fun but weird. We were the only girls and all the other men were gay so they tended to I dunno talk about their weight a lot and make slightly racial jokes. Which bothered me a bit but didn’t seem to bother anyone else. At some point during this wine invested weekend I developed a slight pain on my right side mostly prevalent when I tinkle…I love that word. So I thought hmmmm maybe I have my very first uti or u know kidney infection. Saw a doc. At the minor emergency and it turns out that my urine is: clean as a whistle” I should go and eat some greasy food to see if it bothers my side because it may be my gall bladder but ultimately I need to have an x-ray or sonogram to determine what is causing the pain. I was given some pills for kidney spasms…which I am pretty sure i don’t have. I love the pills cuz they are purple but they turn my urine green bright green as if I poured pure spinach water. I know that was lovely to hear about. But I have been researching online which I know I shouldn’t do cuz I scare myself. Anyway I’m scared it is a kidney stone which terrifies me but at the same time millions of ppl pass them and you don’t need a doc. To help u pass it if that is what I got. Just grin and bear it.

I’m frustrated with work today. I was on the phone for 3 hours trying to help a client with some insurance claims only to find that I can’t do crap about it all and none of her claims will be paid still. My boss also proceeded to talk to me at length today about how she doesn’t at all understand ppl with dental insurance not getting braces for crooked teeth. I’m just sitting there nodding and thinking do u know how long it took me to get comfortable with my teeth and shape size and arrangement does not mean unhealthy always. It can but doesn’t have to. Anyway that is enough of that.

One of my best friends just told me that she got into the peace corp!!! I’m so happy for her! I will miss her dearly but I know she needs this and we will always survive.

I’m looking forward to another busy weekend. Hopefully Mansfeild Friday or sue ellens. Then on to charlie’s art show and the drag party then Beethoven. Then dare I say it….September arrives. Bahhahah. Virgo season is upon us.

Oo and just one other thing to add. I hate having to educate every physician I see about the freaking diva cup and or why as a lesbian the pregnancy and traditional sex questions bother me. I mean they made me pay for a pregnancy test well they charged for it after I told them I was sexually active in the past year but no way I could be preggers. I have no excitement about becoming the next mary either. Well how is that what do you mean explain please. U either are or u aren’t that was 10 bucks of my money.

O and um jax bought me flowers randomly for the 1st time and they were my favorite flowers. Now if we could just get the jealousy and general attitude problem under control we would be set.

I just realized that I do not blog often but when I do its pretty long.

I hate that Sadie leaves little white hairs all over me every morning before work. but i know its my fault cuz i could just not pet her right???
My period came last night and thank god. cuz yesterday honesly this is what i ate: started with 2 clemintines. then i had some grapes and strawberries. 30 minute slater i had a pb and j. after that i had 3 slices of chesse and veggies quesadilla.SP.? THEN I ATE A JELLO CUP. AND DRANK A WHOLE THING OF GATORADE! at no point was i full. i just kept thinking i want chicken strips or sumin. so i just waite dit out till i got home. where i had 2 bowls of cereal. which is prob. 3 bowls for most ppl. then i had scarmbled eggs with chesse with 2 peices of texas toast. that was all. but it was a paragraph worth of food. get me to the gym!
day before yesterday i had a conversation in which someone said KAMYON! i wantto tell u sometjhing. and then proceded to be too scared to tell me. hmmmm. then promptly said they would tell me sometime when they are drunk...?? what's that about?
my family reunion is next weekend and i haven't gone to one alone since Jr. high i don't think. i'm nervous about it but i know i don't need a friend everytime u know.
i'm procrastinanting on applyinmg to grad school. i even asked some ppl to serve as a reference for me to push me to hurry up with it all. but i totally still haven't done the essays. i dunno why i just can't make myself do them. which makes me wonder if i should even go if i can't write the entrance essays...
i need a new car or a serious overhaul of this one.
charlie and i had a beuaty day. mud masks while watching the alzihemers project and french manicure while watching the day the leeves broke part act 1 and 2. was nice. she ate some chicken pasta thing. i was trying really hard to not eat any of it just cuz i had 2 bowls of cereal already.she made me feel not so bad though cuz she had an easy mac cup too. my face does feel smooth today.
who is teh person you feel the most omfortable around??? like you can just be urself without reservation or a second thought. Mine is charlie. i'm just goofy or boring or quiet or loud. i'm glad i have a best friend. it makes life a lil easier.
do you ever see people on occassion through other friends that you just wish in ur mind everytime that you could be friends wityh that person too. but like u know u guys wouldn't really mesh exactly but at occassional hangouts u think wow i mad ethem laugh or hmm. we had a whole conversation this time? i dunno maybe i'm weird but there are some ppl that i just always want to be real friends with but then don't make the effort or whatever and i am also fine with that cu z i don't think we would acctually mesh that well like in alone hangouts.
late bloomers was cuzt and made me so happy. it wa snic eto be in a rom with ppl all lauughing and enjoying a film that a fellow activist made. she broaugh all those ppl to that room. and a poem from the end of teh movie was read at her funeral which made me cry cuz i didn't know it was in the movie.
john and kate plus 8 blah
i miss my friend nikki.
guess i've written enough. my car is so hot you guys dunno what to do!!!no air! ahhhh!!!