I am a little annoyed today. I try to be there for you when I know that you need it. you always act so immature and then push people away like that solves your problems. It is so bizzare. Sometimes when there is a crisis you are so GREAT. You do the right things, jump into action and provide whatever support is needed. You even provide appropriate comic release. But sometimes it is the exact opposite and I don’t understand that. You go into this self loathing act that I can’t tell whether it is real or fake. I also wonder is this just for attention or do you really think like this. You go to this place in your mind of I do everything wrong, no one cares about me or they shouldn’t cuz you do everything wrong. It’s really annoying. It’s not the mature way to handle a freaking problem. And it does not give me confidence in you as a place to gather my strength from. Although whenever I have really needed you, you were always there so that also confuses me. It’s like when it comes to handling someone else’s problems you can help them but handling your own life you are a mess at it. I guess I am too really but I seem to have a better grasp on it than you do. I’m just frustrated right now. You don’t talk when you need to and you say too much when it isn’t needed. Something’s are supposed to be kept in your head. I guess that’s just how I see things. Not everything needs to be verbalized or broadcasted.