Tuesday, May 13, 2008

We live in a fast paced world where we can throw everything away and get more just as fast. We want instant gratification in everything in our lives from fast food to One hour photos. Where is the pride of preparing a hot rich meal and enjoying it with those you care about? We get so used to being a society where if it takes effort then forget it move on and find it somewhere else. Unfortunetly love seems to have also found itself in that same category of trivial and easily tossed items. We dont see the beauty in being with someone who wants to get you and is interested in making you happy. We search for the person that in that moment has made us happy. Loyalty is fleeting. We see possible hardship and begin to question loves worth. I am guilty of this myself...why deal with someone elses bullshit, right? When was the feeling that we get when you lay in someones arms that wants to please you the rest of your life so easily replaced by the diluted and cheap urge to find someone to please us for the night? Has sex becoem more important than love? We dont long to grow old with someone that has been there for every trial and tribulation because that brings up our own mortality and the idea that we may one day get old and life as we know it will be shattered. No one fights for love anymore everyone expects it to continue to be the same rush we feel when we had our first kiss. Love at first sight is bullshit no one looks at a partner across the hall and thinks man i would love to share a sunset with them when im 70. Love takes work and you have to fight for it.We have lost our passion but kept the lust. When i see a 65 year old man holding a door for his wife or an elderly lesbian couple holding hands and walking around teh square, it makes me feel happy and empty inside because i dont know how to envision myself that way but i want to. I see older couples that have been together 40 years that started as two kids barely scraping by and they were happy. They had faith in each other and found shelter and comfort in each other no matter what came thier way.They argued and yelled and smiled and laughed and gave birth to a family that may have at times driven them nuts, but they continued to fight every day and they continued to put forth the effort to always remember that even tho i dont like you right now ill still love you in the morning always and forever. When the fuck did we become such a spoiled ass generation that an arguement or disagreement can make us throw everything good we have away? We would rather suffer alone than to possibly find comfort and support in another person. We constantly question our partners love for us and thier fidelity. We dont know how to love. And even worse sometimes we dont know how to let ourselves be loved. We build walls everyday because we learn to rely on ourselves at least we wont ever hurt ourselves or let ourselves down. Life isnt easy...it was never supposed to be. And love is not an exception to that rule. Take a chance endure some pain and immerse yourself in the good feelings you get when your with your special someone instead of always looking for the next possibility of disappointment or betrayal. Open yourself up to letting someone love you and then make the effort to make it work. It's easy to run from love people do it every day and fill thier lives with work and anything that makes them forget or not care about love. Love takes strength. True strength.----adapted. just rambling a lil bout my head.

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